I totally LOVE today. Not to boast or anything. But the point is...okay I got 2.8 for History... as expected.
3.6 FOR BIO SPA...A MIRACLE...I NV STUDY AT ALL LEH... life is good to me ... finally ... today.
But the oni thing is tt 1 more mark to 4.0 ... think MR DE don't think I'm up to 4.0 standard or sth la.
AIYA...NVM
U NOE WAT?
I got 4.0 for EL ORAL ... Okay... I got full marks last yr ... but this time is really... not expected... I got 25/30. Which pissed RT off to the top of her head ... but her words are really kinda over... OKay... maybe her english standard is higher... but HELLO... for all u noe, I may perform much better than u during ORAL. And she just said it RIGHT IN MY FACE. When sth is unfair or at least I think so, I dont say it in my FRIEND'S face. " Even MZ got 22...which is like same as me" For all u noe, mz may be better for eye contact, Q&A right?
Besides tt, I got higher than her for SPA, which continued to pissed her off even more. Even DY ( who doesn't really get angry) said : What's wrong with her?
Hello DY got 3 marks lower than RT for Oral and RT was like complaining RIGHT IN HER FACE AS WELL. She really doesn't spare a thought for others.
THE MOST WONDERFUL MOMENT.
aT FIRST Chenlaoshi called all those got improve one... okay like 10+ marks. Then, she called Elaine and Minzhe. But she SKIPPED me! I was like... half the class improve by so much then I die lor.
After she called SHIYIN, she suddenly said " Yifan, 16fen " which was really kinda shocking
random lyrics : everyday I shock shock. every noght I shock shock
Okay... but I still didn't know I was the one. Okay... I expected improvements but not like 16 marks. So I went to calculate the average marks... okay... the calculator kinda tells me it's me who got 56. But then. You know you can't just believe it's you then it's not. Kinda embarassing. Okay... finally I got my paper. I seriously dont think Chenlaoshi likes me. Like she nv say " hen hao " or " hen bang " she just like ... jin bu hen da. in the normal tone.
NVM... I think everyone can see that she likes Garbo more. But it doesnt matter much to me. As in although I didn't expected her to be biased or anything, she doesn't really matter so much into my life that I should be so BOTHERED by her attitude.
Okay... so over all it's kinda okay day for me... better than usual.
Still got piano... but theory is so much better... why must learn piano? can just learn theory?
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Friendship
I always idealised friendship. Friendship is SUPPOSED to be like ... 2 friends ... sticking together everyday ... not just tt ... they understand each other, trust each other, help each other, really ... consider her/him as a part of ur life / family.
But I've nv gotten 1 true friend, what i would call, like this ... okay ...maybe good friends but not really besties ...
From ZSS, to SCEX, to HSHL, to OSL, and then now... EWYL...
The one that I've tolerated the most ... ppl who noe me would noe...it's EWYL. I think I changed a lot after my conflict with OSL ended... we weren't exactly back to normal but now we r alright... but the friend that tolerated me the most would be her as well. She always waited for me for everything ... helped me, tolerated my selfishness which I truely regret for not cherishing now. But there is no point in saying this... I could feel she changed too... she became more protective of her secrets... last time she wasn't like this... she was particularly a WONDERFUL friend I would call.
I would say the one I really trusted was H. She had really similar life as me ... which we both can talk abt ... but she really hurt me tt time ... when she sms-ed me abt her reluctance to be my friend any longer... I was really disappointed then...
Now to think of it... all the past friends are still my good friends ... but just don't share secrets.
I had always thought it was my fault... since there can't be fault in every one.. but IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP.
Now E. I told her most secrets. Now she really disappoint me. I expected this day eventually. Some how unconsciouly probably.
When ppl disappoint me nowadays...I dont cry... immuned.
Now on good terms with a few other friends. Really hope that I wont screw up...but I really feel and can be sure tt E and H are not my fault. OKAY... AT LEAST MOST
OSL...really regreted lah. But now... I dont know. When she wrote E a letter. I felt like she was a traitor. AREN'T WE THE VICTIMS?
NVM... anyway. Things are over and done with. TMR IS ANOTHER DAY. You can't live without all these spices which add flavors to ur life... just hope tt it is not too much to numb ur tongue :)
But I've nv gotten 1 true friend, what i would call, like this ... okay ...maybe good friends but not really besties ...
From ZSS, to SCEX, to HSHL, to OSL, and then now... EWYL...
The one that I've tolerated the most ... ppl who noe me would noe...it's EWYL. I think I changed a lot after my conflict with OSL ended... we weren't exactly back to normal but now we r alright... but the friend that tolerated me the most would be her as well. She always waited for me for everything ... helped me, tolerated my selfishness which I truely regret for not cherishing now. But there is no point in saying this... I could feel she changed too... she became more protective of her secrets... last time she wasn't like this... she was particularly a WONDERFUL friend I would call.
I would say the one I really trusted was H. She had really similar life as me ... which we both can talk abt ... but she really hurt me tt time ... when she sms-ed me abt her reluctance to be my friend any longer... I was really disappointed then...
Now to think of it... all the past friends are still my good friends ... but just don't share secrets.
I had always thought it was my fault... since there can't be fault in every one.. but IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP.
Now E. I told her most secrets. Now she really disappoint me. I expected this day eventually. Some how unconsciouly probably.
When ppl disappoint me nowadays...I dont cry... immuned.
Now on good terms with a few other friends. Really hope that I wont screw up...but I really feel and can be sure tt E and H are not my fault. OKAY... AT LEAST MOST
OSL...really regreted lah. But now... I dont know. When she wrote E a letter. I felt like she was a traitor. AREN'T WE THE VICTIMS?
NVM... anyway. Things are over and done with. TMR IS ANOTHER DAY. You can't live without all these spices which add flavors to ur life... just hope tt it is not too much to numb ur tongue :)
Monday, May 3, 2010
Misunderstandings
(previous one posted kinda late)
Okay... just cleared the misunderstandings... but I still feel that we are not in the wrong...
Haha... Go and see her blog...now...WOW such understanding friend we have. Even pl say she is making herself sound so nice... like she just forgave us like that.
How NICE of her was that ... writing all abt us in her blog...
And she say she's just writing abt her emotions. but hello! The whole class, her family now thinks that WE ARE THE ONES CAUSED HER TO CRY... WOW!!!!!!!!
Such a nice girl.
Okay... just cleared the misunderstandings... but I still feel that we are not in the wrong...
Haha... Go and see her blog...now...WOW such understanding friend we have. Even pl say she is making herself sound so nice... like she just forgave us like that.
How NICE of her was that ... writing all abt us in her blog...
And she say she's just writing abt her emotions. but hello! The whole class, her family now thinks that WE ARE THE ONES CAUSED HER TO CRY... WOW!!!!!!!!
Such a nice girl.
Really irritates me
It really irritates me when someone, just becos she's pissed/angry, put ALL THE BLAME ON U!
As in how does she have the courage to do tt... dont u feel guilty?
I really dont want to mention these in my new, nice, lil, FRIENDSHIP blog which I abandoned, but seriously...
even if I wasn't reluctant to go with you to the MRT, you are saying that I did? Not putting blame on the other 2 but seriously, I was the 1 who asked everyone to go with U because I cared for you and your feelings. I thought you needed us to go only to the gate so I didn't bring my card. But when you said you wanted us to go to the MRT, I didn't tell you I thought it was the gate, so I talked to the scary security guard and we walked ALL the way to MRT, not mentioning the time we wasted for the ballad. But none of us thought much of it. So while waiting for you to come on msn, we did our work.
Then, you came on msn (webcam). But what did you do? Aaron, music, digress. I asked you qns and you asked us where did you finish until. Okay. We typed it in. But where did ur reply go? So that was an ENTIRE... waste of time. We really tried to include u and not let u feel bad... that is why I kept talking to u on webcam ... and now, u r angry, u place all the blame on ME! Really thx.
At first I was thinking... you are blaming everyone equally...ok. But now everything is on me... rly good one... disappoint me to the most.
Then I just sent thru email, the stuff we did. Just joking abt how efficient we r. It is true that you were here oni @ stanza1 and we did till stanza7, but u were watch ur SHOW! Really felt that you were trying to make use of us. Ur mom did not allow you to use COMPUTER but u said to her u need for AA then u went home and watch tt show. Not discussing at all.
Talk abt hw stress, 1 have ballet, piano cheer, etc. 1 did most of this, had a lot of things as well. I had tuition, Piano.
So.TELL ME. WHO HAS LESS HW AND STRESS THAN YOU?
So we woke @ 7+ did 7 stanzas but when did u wake up? Watching ur show? Fine. Till then I didn't get pissed but when I asked you to do 2 stanzas then I collate with everyone, u were so reluctant!
Think abt rest of us.
Then. The grp reflection. Ok I found it. another person used it as raft paper. But excuse me, I just asked u to check. Since when did I blame it on you? I was just thinking since you check @ night, maybe u shud check again. And I told everyone to check, so y do u regard it as me blaming u?
U said ur mom dont allow to go to ur house. And u were the one who said : actually ur house is in the middle of us. That's y we had the second meeting in my house as well, isn't it? Then WHY are you blaming me for this too.
Just to say. Crying doesnt make you the right one. I cried too. With disappointment.I never knew that you would be like this. Listing everything on ur blog. I rly had lots of trust in u. Then I realised. No point crying for u, no point doing stuff for u cos u wrote another one, TOTALLY BLAMING ME!
I got really shock when I saw ur blog. I nv knew that a friend can be like this. True, Before this I was angry, but I thought of forgive and forget. Then u totally made me ... don't know how to say.
I admit that I and the rest have did stuff that make u feel bad but don't you think it is a bit over to put everything on me?
As in how does she have the courage to do tt... dont u feel guilty?
I really dont want to mention these in my new, nice, lil, FRIENDSHIP blog which I abandoned, but seriously...
even if I wasn't reluctant to go with you to the MRT, you are saying that I did? Not putting blame on the other 2 but seriously, I was the 1 who asked everyone to go with U because I cared for you and your feelings. I thought you needed us to go only to the gate so I didn't bring my card. But when you said you wanted us to go to the MRT, I didn't tell you I thought it was the gate, so I talked to the scary security guard and we walked ALL the way to MRT, not mentioning the time we wasted for the ballad. But none of us thought much of it. So while waiting for you to come on msn, we did our work.
Then, you came on msn (webcam). But what did you do? Aaron, music, digress. I asked you qns and you asked us where did you finish until. Okay. We typed it in. But where did ur reply go? So that was an ENTIRE... waste of time. We really tried to include u and not let u feel bad... that is why I kept talking to u on webcam ... and now, u r angry, u place all the blame on ME! Really thx.
At first I was thinking... you are blaming everyone equally...ok. But now everything is on me... rly good one... disappoint me to the most.
Then I just sent thru email, the stuff we did. Just joking abt how efficient we r. It is true that you were here oni @ stanza1 and we did till stanza7, but u were watch ur SHOW! Really felt that you were trying to make use of us. Ur mom did not allow you to use COMPUTER but u said to her u need for AA then u went home and watch tt show. Not discussing at all.
Talk abt hw stress, 1 have ballet, piano cheer, etc. 1 did most of this, had a lot of things as well. I had tuition, Piano.
So.TELL ME. WHO HAS LESS HW AND STRESS THAN YOU?
So we woke @ 7+ did 7 stanzas but when did u wake up? Watching ur show? Fine. Till then I didn't get pissed but when I asked you to do 2 stanzas then I collate with everyone, u were so reluctant!
Think abt rest of us.
Then. The grp reflection. Ok I found it. another person used it as raft paper. But excuse me, I just asked u to check. Since when did I blame it on you? I was just thinking since you check @ night, maybe u shud check again. And I told everyone to check, so y do u regard it as me blaming u?
U said ur mom dont allow to go to ur house. And u were the one who said : actually ur house is in the middle of us. That's y we had the second meeting in my house as well, isn't it? Then WHY are you blaming me for this too.
Just to say. Crying doesnt make you the right one. I cried too. With disappointment.I never knew that you would be like this. Listing everything on ur blog. I rly had lots of trust in u. Then I realised. No point crying for u, no point doing stuff for u cos u wrote another one, TOTALLY BLAMING ME!
I got really shock when I saw ur blog. I nv knew that a friend can be like this. True, Before this I was angry, but I thought of forgive and forget. Then u totally made me ... don't know how to say.
I admit that I and the rest have did stuff that make u feel bad but don't you think it is a bit over to put everything on me?
Her --LIT AA
Really feel like crying, after seeing how she wrote about me on her blog. How can she be so okay ytd but today so... There's so much things that's not true on her blog ... what's her aim...I nv boast when I woke up... just joking, can't she take a joke? It was true that she did use us as an excuse, used the com and digressed...we asked quite a handful of things for her to help but she just played music and watch some show!
Then she say it was us who digress and only when she gonna leave then start do work but she was the one, calling me out again and again to help her with something personal.
I did ask everyone to follow and everyone thought it was to the gate... guess what, it was to MRT! Fine, I don't mind... so we walked to MRT with her, all wasting our time, she's happy? No! She says she's disappointed with our reluctance...excuse me but we went so far with you, wasting half an hour...sorry to say but we were more effecient.
Then we asked you to help... then you start saying if we don't tell you where to meet tomorrow, dont say you nv do anything. Yah we won't say, but did you do anything? No. Until just now... we did half for you alr and gave you tips but you say you want to type tmr... what kinda atitude is this?
You think 204 got atitude prob... I think you have more
sorry that it became 1st person but really angry
Then she say it was us who digress and only when she gonna leave then start do work but she was the one, calling me out again and again to help her with something personal.
I did ask everyone to follow and everyone thought it was to the gate... guess what, it was to MRT! Fine, I don't mind... so we walked to MRT with her, all wasting our time, she's happy? No! She says she's disappointed with our reluctance...excuse me but we went so far with you, wasting half an hour...sorry to say but we were more effecient.
Then we asked you to help... then you start saying if we don't tell you where to meet tomorrow, dont say you nv do anything. Yah we won't say, but did you do anything? No. Until just now... we did half for you alr and gave you tips but you say you want to type tmr... what kinda atitude is this?
You think 204 got atitude prob... I think you have more
sorry that it became 1st person but really angry
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